There is so much going on in my life right now. We are moving into my in-law's house, making it handicapped accessible so we can move my MIL in with us, painting, cleaning, moving...it all adds up. On top of that neither of us is taking vacation time to actually do this so we work all day and then go to the house and work. We are working all day on our days off. There isn't any down time as we want it finished as soon as possible.

On top of this, I have not been well. I have had bouts with debilitating pain. I could not close my hands, my legs hurt so badly I couldn't sleep. I am experiencing chronic fatigue (imagine that). Nothing was/is helping. On Monday I was in so much pain that I called the doctor and took a 1/2 day from work to go. He believes that I may have fibromyalgia. I have always thought that fibromyalgia was a catch all diagnosis for "I have no clue what is going on". It has so many symptoms and so many variations. I am on a course of steroids that have taken the edge off the pain but have not eliminated it. I can feel the drag of depression coming on with the ramifications of a diagnosis.

This year has just been one thing after another health wise. I have also had to deal with some tremendous losses, my beloved friend Pam who I still miss daily and the betrayal of someone I truly trusted. Moving, my MIL's health issues, my so loved uncle's health issues. I hate it. It is no wonder I am tired and no wonder I am depressed.

I am looking forward to my high school reunion in a couple of weeks. I hope by then they will know what is going on with me and I will feel well enough to travel and enjoy my family and friends. I just want all the pieces of my life to fall into some semblance of order... is that just too much to ask?